Sunshine Butterfly

Friday, July 08, 2005 @ 12:25 AM

Conceptual leap

a large part of our life is repetition ... but sometime
we made conceptual leap

when we wan to achieve sth, or when we one to
progress or when our life is in a mess

i always have a different way of handling tings ...
a hard to grasp personality ... but my weirdness
is repetitive

a last minute king ... I thrived on delaying,
procrastinating till the last min ... it's NEVER
a good way of handling ting ... gud ting is
tt I was nvr punished ... the down side is tt
I kept repeating the same pattern

a crazy honours year, 10 mods + 1 proj within
a year ... due to my 'faulty' planning cld
teach me a ting or two abt last minute

there was sth tt I wished to resolve ... it was
sth dear to me ... I finally resolved it last wk

it took a conceptual leap to resolve it ... a rather
painful measure ... but I had to do it
becuz it was the sec bez ting to do

mb I cld fly with tis being resolved ... we
shall see

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commencement was on fri ... I was
looking forward to it

as a child ... I have images of grad
throwing their "grad-hat"up in the
sky

but I nvr thot so much abt gg to
uni

my form teacher in pri sch used to
ask me abt my ambition ... I said
I wanted to b a cab driver

she was obviously v disappointed

den later on in life ... I wanted to
b one of the 3 professions : lawyer,
scientist or pilot

my eyesight was poor since young ...
so pilot was out

I was disappointed when my cousin
din go for the pilot test for RSAF

somehow bet lawyer n scientist ...
I embarked on the route to b
a scientist

as a child I had to fight a lot of
'battle' ... there were turbulent
periods ... sometimes I wished there
wld b pple by my side to help or
hear me out ... perhaps tt y I wanted
to b a lawyer ... so tt I cld b of help

being able to help is a gift ... I always
feel tis happiness when I help someone

if I'm a successful scientist nxt time
I MIGHT b a lawyer after tt ... sometimes
I wished everything I wanted to b ...
but it is always nt quite possible

perhaps ONE has to always learn to be
contented

was real bz during commencement ...
so much fotos to b taken ...

cousin Noi helped me a lot with
the wearing of the gown

every moment was special

Yuansong, Chunkiat, sinwah n even Steven
were at my commencement ... I was surprised
to see Steven at the commencement though
... realli surprised ...

Ivy, Cheehong, Rongzhang, Vincent, Tze Chien
were there too

was realli happy to see a lot of my close pals
down

except time wasn't realli enuff ... busy shuffling
ard to take pics ... before everyone left

but time juz wasn't enuff ... I still can tink of perhaps
ten pple I din hav time to take foto with

but everyone was v happy ... it was a contrast to
March when everyone was struggling for
thesis

one of my examiner even told his student ... he was
surprised I managed to complete my thesis

in Feb ... my project seemed to b heading towards
doom

din quite understand y suddenly my uni life had
become lidat

but I'm quite blessed realli ... nt gloating but I'm
seldom punished for my mistake ... n there
always seemed to b someone who will help me
when tings get realli worst

I will leave NUS with memories of
those wonderful friendships I hav

for me ... I treasured a lot of my frenzs
tt crossed my paths

without den ... my uni life will b less
fruitful, less happening, less enjoyable ...
monotonus n flat

I wanted to go back to lab to take pics with Prof, Michie
& audrey ... but time wasn't enuff ... prof was
wondering y i din go back to lab

after tt it was dinner time with my mom & relatives
... my legs were realli tired ... luckily it was buffet so
i need nt have to make the decision on wat to eat

all my cousins were there ... we had a drink after

Sat was cool ... mtg my SF project mates for a trip
to JB ... KS had a car so she drove us ard JB

TF & YK was absent ... but still it was plenty of fun

the food was nice ... n singing karaoke with KS &
GH was pure fun !!! we cld sing for longer
without time constraint

the karaoke in JB gave me quite a homely feeling,
the staff was cool & friendly though there was
an electric shutdown half way thru our session, damn
... anyway there was this funny incident:

KS saw a cockroach at the corner of the room

Me: Can u pls called the staff to get rid of the cockroach
, I'm bloody scared of cockroach

The staff came in

KS: Can u pls remove the cockroach beside the sofa

Staff (Guy): It's nt call cockroach ... we call it
Xiao Qiang

KS: so it's ur pet

Me: Can u pls remove ur pet (laughing)

Staff: all rite I go n fetch the broom

KS: can u juz use a piece of paper cuz if u
sweep it ... it might run again

Staff: it won't run ... it will fly

Me: HAhahaha

KS: den can u please use the piece of paper

Staff: I told u I scared alreadi mah .....

had dinner at Taman Sentosa ... the food were nice ...
as a child I thot the Sentosa in JB were lidat of
Singapore ... so of cuz I was in for a disappointment

but now I kinda liked it rustic charm n its gd food

we sat n talked ... n it had been a whole four years

felt v poignant when I wrote the previous sentence

so Sat was over juz lidat

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met one of my former student's mother at the mkt
... n it reminded me of the 3 yrs I spent teaching
his son

she asked me to counsel her son ... I realli wished
I haven't forgotten all my JC stuff so I cld
teach her son n try to help him for his Á'level

but the reality is I cldn't remember

I remembered the nice bbq, the food n dessert
her family used to serve me

I cld still remember those 3 yrs sweetly

I'm more of an outdoor person ... so sitting down
for hours is nt alwae v tolerable ... but seeing
my students improving n performing realli
inspired me ... I guessed tt was how I have taught 6
yrs of tuition

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pls do view my commencement fotos ... it's at
www.koreanmovie.org/pg

til den ... adieus