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my sixth post in the blog and i'm tinking of various tings, i have oni like 3 days before I have to left Lund, Sweden, 3 days before the final exam, 3 days before saying gdbye to tis univerisity town ... it has been a beautiful 5 mths ... so much fun to hav ... so much tings to experience ... n plenty of tings I will nvr forget ... n the pple I met will remain deeply in my memory ... 5 mths ago leaving Singapore with a lot of pain ... n arriving in Sweden feeling really homesick, i wondered how i'm gg to survive it all ... can I bear the loneliness, how can i live without my family n frenzs who r so dear to me ... the deep feeling for sadness was so intimate the day when I woke up after arriving in Sweden, it wasn't a nice feeling becuz I kept tinking abt tings, tinking abt the tings I yearned, tinking abt my family, tinking abt my frenzs n feeling tt I will be away for a whole of 6 mths ... n there I was in my room n I din feel great abt tt ... I went into the bathroom n juz let the water run thru me ... it cld ease my sorrow for juz a little while ... it helps ... that Saturday we went for the excursion ... out in the countryside fresh with snow ... n the memories I could still have ... I wasn't feeling great at all but I was having fun taking photographs, everything was new ... there was an exhilaration in it all, yet the memories of things that one was acquainted with can invoke such a strong feeling with me ... I got to know a couple of Singapore exchange students n of course one feel much beta ... jayce, rachel, siffanie, yanyi, zhihao I all met in the first week n it helped to soothe my mood ... it helped a lot ... the days are short which made my heart cry ... I started learning Swedish the days after I arrived, i donno but there was no exhilaration in taking up the new language, never knew why, the enthusiasm that I took to studying Korean was never there but I hang on because I have started the course ... as the days went ... I fell in love with the town and I was immersing myself in the fun ... now as I sat in my room preparing for the final ... there was this strange sense of sadness that entered me ... a feeling that I wasn't very used to ... but things always come to an end, the past few months was like entering a dreamland, a place totally different, like a newborn child, everything seemed new to me ... no wonder when I was about to leave, I felt so painful inside ... i felt like a part of me is going to be taken away, felt the same pain when I first came here ... coming to exchange was nvr a mistake ... the paperworks were worth it all ... the $$$ spent were worth it all, there was nothing i regretted upon on coming to exchange n I have no regrets on my days spent here ... except time realli flies ... when it's time to say goodbye ... i guess one muz ... karen called me the other day told me how sad she was ... n everyone felt the same ... we all grew to like the plc ... tis morning I was sitting on the sofa n juz looking at my room juz made me feel like I will miss it all ... next will be my 1 mth europe tour ... it will be fun n before that I will have the Stockholm Marathon ... it was to me my highlight for June ... just recovering from my illness, I felt ready to run ... i couldn't imagine missing it because I have trained for it, because I have overcome my past injuries to start running again and because I have made so much progress I juz don wan to miss it, I want to return with a medal to feel really proud of myself, my Swedish friends will be catching it on TV and I don wan to disappoint them too back to top?