Do You Believe in
the future?


I always believe in the future, so
I always never think
of the minus side


I always think things will
work up, so I end up
in quite a deep shit
last year

Many years ago, I started supporting
Arsenal. I din know
why or under what circumstances.


I always think true love
just happens. It happens
without your mind
intercepting


Anyway, I admire the manager
of Arsenal. He is always
calm, always in
control, shrewd and
a believer in people
and the future


He is a visionary and I believe
in the future tt he paints


For good or bad, I have always
believe in the future.
Sometimes things just
turn rotten & I wonder
why. But still, it is
difficult for me to
be cautious, for me to
stop believing in the future.


Sometimes last year, things
happen & I question myself
abt my vision for the future


I am healing now & my belief
is back. I am starting
to believe that
I can complete my study
on time.


When I'm at work, I'm really a thinking
person. For me, life is
not abt work. Some pple
think I am ambitious, but actually
no.


To me, creating a life story
with your special one is more
impt. I believe in the future and
I believe that I will
find th person who shares
the same vision as me


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I went sun-tanning together with Jayce
on Sat. The sun didn't come up
until 3pm.


It was quite fun and the club was serene
& peaceful. It is no wonder that
Jayce frequents the place.


I din know I miss the sun so much.


Tt evening, we celebrated Dl's birthday
@ Suntec. The restaurant's manager
is really v funny. He went up to us
& cracked some v lame jokes. He got
a weird accent & so I was listening
really hard trying not to miss a word.
Then he sang the birthday
song in many languages; even
in Tamil. haha!!!


The birthday cake was really rich.


I guess it has been a while since we met,
the fun and laughter is still there.
I think friendship should be
like this, lotsa fun & laughter.


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Certain things don change!!!


On Sunday, I was at home. din quite
rmb what I was doing,
but the radio was on


den I have a familiar tune ...
I jumped out of the bed ...
"What is title of this song"


Several months back ... I recorded
the same song over the radio
but din know the singer
or the title of the song


Kian Leng told me it might be
蔡淳佳. On hindsight he's
correct.


The lyrics is very meaningful
at least for me ...


here are excerpts from the song:


"Yesterday 很模糊， 那时梦很美
有guitar 会让我想飞"


"那几年的爱呀 要不要放下 该忘了他吗
爱他的心情 可能最后变成一粒沙
没实现的梦呀 还在风里飘吧"


my Chinese input suddenly went awry
so I can't type anymore of the
lyrics


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Early of the week, I caught 2 movies at
the film fest with Kian Leng


The first one was v gud.
The cinematography was excellent,
din expect the movie to be
so gud


So our expectations were heightened ...
the next movie was
disappointing


Fifteen minutes into the movie,
I told myself it's oki
to fall asleep ... n den
true enuff, I doze off


For me, I always imagine
beautiful things happening
in the future, so I don't
like depressing and
pessimistic movie


Feeling sorry abt thing
is a rare concept for me ...


den on Saturday, we
watched a Vietnamese
movie ... the movie was gud
but I was just too tired


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April is coming to an end.
Time really flies, the first
4 months has just passed
away


everyday I feel I'm racing
against time. Last year,
I feared that I couldn't
finish my proj on time


Things started to change early this
year. Now I'm confident
tt I can finish on time. I haven't
yet see the light
at the end of the tunnel, but
I feel in control now


In some people eyes my life
is rosy ... but beneath
the surface everyone
has their struggle


After last year's pain, I told
myself

Keeping a distance from controversy


2008 has been kind to me ... Except
from a persistence flu, things
have been just right


I have been cold towards pple
I'm not tt close with &
I'm no longer meet up
with new frenzs tt I met


I rather spend more time
with existing frenzs & do things
tt I really enjoy ... & tt lotsa
things I enjoy doing


Some pple are phoney & I really
detest them ... being ard
such pple is a waste of time
... the best way is to give
a fake smile & walk away ...
tt wat I have been doing ...
distancing myself from controversy

haven't sing @ the karaoke for a couple
of months ... so after our gathering
to discuss abt Steven's upcoming
gathering, we went to the karaoke ...

Singing with Yuansong, Sinwah & Danny
is v fun ...


Singing like writing is abt expressing
yourself ... & when u repressed your
expression, u don do as well ...
tt wat realised y I din hit
the high notes last time


Even bladeing is also an act of
self-expression ... but
stock analysis is not
one of them ... but I like
it nonetheless


the most distasting thing
for me is for pple
looking for instant
profit and asking for
recommendations ... I told
them you are better off buying lottery


Stock speculating is like
gambling & it will degrade
ur quality of life ... tt I believe
strongly. The most impt
thing is to enjoy ur life n nothing
else ... if u are really happy, u
don need the $$$ to convince
u abt tt


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I finally plucked my "wisdom tooth" last
Thursday ... the dentist is
a pretty nice chap ...


he greeted me with a smile & "complained"
tt it has been more than a
year & tt my tooth is decaying


last time I just don want
to spend the $$$ to pluck the tooth ...
but I promised myself tt
I will take gud care of my
health this time ard


I know tt MY was concerned abt
me getting sick before ... I think
she was angry becuz she
feel I din take care
of myself


Knowing her enriches my life &
spurs me towards and closer
to the person I want
to be


Tt's y I have nvr forgotten
abt her ... it's true tt things
happen n pple move on n
tt y I have always believe
tt she is living a fufilling life

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