Moving forward after July's turmoil


More turmoil arrived in mid August ...
my research project has reached
rock bottom ... n the stock
market took another
dive in August


I finally discussed my
project with one of the most
experienced research
stuff in the department


It din know this colleague
very well in the
beginning of the year ... to
me he appeared a bit
unapproachable


We started talking when
we knew both of us
invested in stock


So tt was the beginning...
he told me to look for him
if I had probs with my work


When I told him abt what
had been done by my
predecessor, he instantly
pointed up
all the major flaws of the
experiments


& he spot on!!! I
was v impressed ... but I'm
not surprised becuz
all along I thot
this guy is gud


All this means tt my project
is now clouded with
lotsa uncertainities


Carrying on with other
people stuff is not
easy ... tt what I came to realise


The only thing I can do
is to try to solve the prob...
for me it's oki to be faced
with probs, but I just
fear that time
is running out


I suppose I will continue
to preserve even if
I feel alone in facing
my troubles sometimes ...
I will bail myself
out of this mess!!!


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I had finally sold away some
shares ...


lost some $$$ ... tt
wat they said sch fees


The stock market is one
complicated matter ... sometimes
I wonder why a not-so-good counter
can perform so well ... & I wonder
y pple are overly optimistic
sometimes


I suppose the stock market is
where emotions run high ...
optimisim is multiplied
many folds during a bull
run ... & pessimisim
also intensified when
bad news start flooding in


At this moment, I think
the easiest thing is
to keep things simple ...
complicated strategies
didn't quite work


Picking good stocks
are not hard ... Picking
winning stocks sometime
requires a bit of luck ...


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It has been more than a month since
July 7


Time really flies even though the past
month has been painful


Bad patch comes once in a while ...
so I just have to deal with it
in the best possible way


It rains a lot this week ...
& I thought about Phoenix
when it rains


Phoenix has been good for me.
I still remember
how she corrected the
way I hold my
chopsticks and urged
me to read the daily
papers


correcting ur partner continuously
might not be a healthy
thing sometimes... but
for my case I always believe
Phoenix can
help me improve a lot
as a person


It took a while for me
to change the way I hold
my chopsticks ... but for
me it matters a lot
that she cares to rectify me...
& I appreciate it big time


Both of us have a lot of pride.
One party has to give in
eventually. The prob
came when there
was a miscommunication
& no one wanted to
yield becuz we felt
we weren't at fault


Despite all this, I like
her pridefulness. I have
always been a prideful person &
for good or bad, i like this quality in her.
Without it,
she won't be the person I like


I have been reading
& observing in the past weeks.
The way guys & gals
think and handle things
are v different ...
the prob arises when
one assumes thing; now, how
accurate can one assumes
about the opposite sex when
guys & gals are fundamentally different?


Tt was my mistake


I have thought things thru &
I'm v sure about one
thing: I haven't like anyone
more in the past 2 years.


i can't say for sure what will
happen in the future... but in the coming
mths, I will iron
up all the difficulties that
has cropped up in my life
recently ... I will rid of them!!!

Aftermath of July


July has got to be the worst of
2007... a bad patch month
tt is


Surprisingly all the bad stuff
all came together ...


I donno whether things will
get any worst ... but
I suppose there's nt
a lot of things that can
be worst


In July, my research project, relationship
& stock all failed ... so the
emotional impact is quite
big


I still think about Phoenix sometime...
n in those occasions,
I try to keep my
resentment towards
her to a minimum


Generally, I feel regretful & sad
but anger arose sometime


I suppose my anger was directed
towards the situation
& nt towards
Phoenix


I have always liked Phoenix
so this doesn't change
my feel abt her


The most important thing for me
is to move on


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On the first day of August, I finally
passed my boat theory


I had failed it twice ... when I was
taking the course ... a number
of people told me the
theory test is gonna be
difficult


I din believe them then ... now
I DO BELIEVE them


The third time round, I badly wanted
to pass ... so I was quite
apprehensive when I received
the result


The result 28/30 ... so I'm relieved
tt I finally passed. After
tt, I stood outside the test centre;
I always want to share this
piece of good news with Phoenix...
but now things are different
& even much I want to,
I can't treat her like before


I took a bus home. I was thinking
things thru den I just dozed off.


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Sammi Cheng is coming to Singapore.


I missed her concert in 2004, so I'm glad
she's coming again. I got the news
rather late so I din have enuff
time to ask a number of my
frenzs. So I will be
gg with two of my JC frenzs.


Haha... it will be quite fun. But, october
will be busy, with concert, party &
project works.

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