I was reflecting on the past 5 years of
my life & I came up with the happiness index

to amuse myself

2007-2009 was a relatively dark period of
my life. It was manageable but not
enjoyable.

I remember having chronic headache for the

first time in my life in 2007. I was a
stock market newbie & the turbulence
worsen my already downcast
personal life .

Happiness in modern life can be sometimes
difficult to sustain. For me my leisure
index can explain part of my
unhappiness.

For the past few years, it was work,
work and more work. It wasn't
that meaningless, but it
was very tiring.

Still, I feel my energy is slowly coming
back & I'm making slow & steady
recovery from my chronic
neck & back pain.

Thesis writing is not a bad thing
after all, it really trains me
to persevere, to forget
all the unknown &
to concentrate on
finishing it.

It's a massive struggle because I don't
have the habit of sitting still. At least,
it's done & after the thesis
defense, I can move
on to another phase of my life. It
will be more exciting & hopefully
more fruitful.

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I might be starting my first profit-based
online site. It will be a lot of work
but I reckon I will be able to
launch it latest by 5 March
2012.

The idea is good & there are few competitors
so I think it worth a try.

Koreanmovie.org was my first website.
It was intended to be non-profit at
that time & I was proud that
eventually it was featured
in the first page of major
search engines.

I couldn't cope with my schedule so I ended
Koreanmovie.org.

It has been years since I last watched
a korean movie. That really shows
how caught up with work I have
been. Finally, my pace of life
has appeared to slow down,
even if it's for a while.

I am generally very laid back & most
of my close friends could probably agree.
But, somehow, my schedule are always
tight. I love my own free time &
always can't get enough of it.

I was chatting with my hairstylist Doreen,
& she told me my great appetite for freedom
in a relationship is not conducive to sustain one.

"Daily reporting is essential, if u don't
like the idea, it's better not
to start one & make
each other suffers"

I am sometimes amazed when I talked
to Doreen because I think she
is fun yet principled.

For me, I am not really sure
what I want from a relationship, so I
haven't been seriously looking for one
since 2007. Freedom to me appears
to be the only thing in life that
I have never been sick of. For me,
it's my elixir.

I think that is my difficulty, at the
moment, it's really hard for
me to surrender my freedom.
But life's unpredictable,
things might change
a lot this year.

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