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When a golden girl can win
Prayer from out the lips of sin,
When the barren almond bears,
And a little child gives away its tears,
Then shall all the house be still
And Peace come to Canterville

- The Canterville Ghost

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Will u give a stranger $$$ to buy lunch???

I used to do tt ... but stopped doing so ...
when it appeared tt they may be
swindlers trying to "earn" $$$ this way ...
but rejecting to give $2 or so ... doesn't make
one feel gud ... mb it's a genuine case ...
but I hate to feel cheated

Arsenal 2 Wolves 0 - I fancy Arsenal to win the Champion League

maybe the Premier League is beyond them ...
Arsenal can't challenge with Chelsea for now ... Chelsea
has outspent them ... but it's wise to spend within
the club means ...

Arsenal has a bumper season ... they were crusing
juz a few months back

it's unbelievable how tings change in soccer ... bottom
line nothing is for sure in the world of soccer

a bad patch means a lot ... a bad patch
damages confidence

Confidence take a while to build up ... but it
can disappear very quickly

Confidence is this fragile ... tt y it's highly
valued

but Arsenal won't finish the season trophyless ...
they are too gud to finish empty-handed ... so
Gooners shouldn't worry

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January is soon to be over ... so i can take a break
enjoys the CNY ... n try to save more ... becuz
come March I need to buy a few more bdae
present

can't wait for CNY ... all the goodies ... n the ang-bao
marathon ... will take a break from routine
lab ... i guess i need a breather ... n the festive period
can juz provide tt

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guys ... don have to worry abt my korean website ...
will be undergoing a overhaul pretty soon ...
will bring a pro in to help in the designing of the website

tt it for now ... gonna go sch now ...







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Sunny... Sunny January

January is great for me ... not too hot ... not too cold n the best ting is the sun always shine ... tt y i alwae looks forward to counting down towards a new year ... the first half of the year is always exciting for me ... but tis will b a tough first half for me ... at the lab things are improving but still I couldn't say I have made the breakthrough ... couldn't say I'm on a good patch

Things don't juz come in pairs ... they come in the cluster ... if u r on a good patch ... everything is just rite for u ... but a bad patch is like a viscious cycle ... u have to pray u hit the bottom first ... den things will improve dramatically ... donno whether i have hit the bottom ... it's hard to tell

spend the most part of last wk in the lab ... but Audrey n Michie r nice pals ... so it was kinda enjoyable doing tings in the lab... met up with Bryan on Sat nite ... n he asked me wat I'm gg to do when I reached home "Read journals on my project lor" ... "No life" was the reply ... i just smile back at him ...
I have not shop for a while
I have not go the gym, or do any running, or swim for a long while
I have not being watching movie for a month
I have not slept 9 hours for a month
n I am always at my deek
in short my life has changed dramatically ...

went out to do some New Year shopping with Dick on Hari Raya Haji ... but nvr bought anything ... i have some budget for New Year shopping ... but just not enuff time ... it wasn't strange shopping after a "long" lapse ... the energy is still there ... with a bit more time I should be satisfied with a new wardrobe

weekend for me is one 2 things : Tuition n watching soccer on TV ... getting back to private tuition feels great again ... i prefer it to class tuition ... BH prefers class tuition becuz u don get bored easily ... but teaching pri sch kids can be both fun n havoc ...
but i hav reservation abt teaching class tuition ... becuz the class size is too BIG ... n I have some restrictions on how I shd conduct my lessons
HAVING restrictions take away the joy ... I DON't like restrictions ... n I HATE to be restrained, but I have good relationships with the boss n I respect it a lot ... so I bottle the pain

wat r u doing for CNY ??? I'm gg to hav a smashing gud time ... forget abt my project ... forget abt works ... n juz enjoy SPRINGTIME ... loads of food, ba kwa, abalone, crabs, love letters ... I love strawberry love letters n I love crabs ... mum used to cook shark fins for New Year Eve dinner, it's great with spoonfuls of vinegar ... n with the ANG BAO $$$ i will have enuff $$$ till April ... Life will b gud after CNY ... i will b on a PURPLE patch ... goodbye troubles!!!

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Still no results ...

usually i update my blog every 5-7 days ... decided to do type something today, cuz I'm too tired to do anything else ... still no results from my experiment ... time is running out ... Audrey suggested tt I changed my project .. but I can't keep practising "Project hop" ... time is nt on my side ... Mr Optimist is on a bad patch ... mabbe the bad patch will end when the new lunar year arrive ...

juz for some fun ... i decided to do an interview on myself:

What is the luckiest thing that have happened to you in the last 24 hours?

was kicking the ball with my cousin at home ... den i lost my balance ... n my wrist hit furiously onto a chair ... i shld have hurt my wrist realli badly ... n gosh it's my right wrist ... if i twisted it ... it will signify the end of my FYP ... tks gdness!!!

What is nice abt January?

It's the month of the year which I like the most ... IT'S A NEW YEAR ... A NEW BEGINNING ... NEW RESOLUTIONS which means new hope!!! Life is nothing without hope n hope is nothing without belief ... everyday we wake up believing that the best will happen to us ... n every year we are awakened with new hope that things will b even better. January ... oso means saying goodbye to rainy days ... n I love the sun ... I'm a sun-loving person

What are things you can't forget 24/7 ??

24 hours is not a long time ... so it's not surprising that i think of so many things simultaneously ... abt my dreams ... abt my nice summer holiday ... abt my baby nephew ... abt my project n abt the people I like

What is your favourite colour?

Nothing is as cheerful n as happening as yellow ... it's the colour that will make me smile ... so I love things that are yellow ... it's not a LOUD colour realli ... i likened it to b the colour of hopes, the symbols of a thousand cheerful faces ... the most ambivalent colour for me though is PINK


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You Are the Enthusiast

7 You are outgoing and playful - always seeing the happy side to life. You're enthusiastic and excitable. You love anything new. Multi-talented, you do many things well... and find success easy. You prefer to keep things light with others. Opening up is hard for you.

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the last 4 mths of NUS life

end of the first wk of my last semester ... feeling a bit sad tt i'm reaching the end of my university life ... it has been a wonderful 4 years in NUS

the last year was painful though ... one has to work so hard ... n I nt one who mugged a lot

anyway when I mugged too much, my results suffered anyway

spent Monday having lunch with Zhuzhen + Cheefeng ... pals which I met in last semester lit class... they r juz beginning their NUS life ... i hope they enjoy it ... i tink i still feel their excitement as undergrad when I talk to them ... was late for class by an hour or so ... there were so much PRC in the lecture ... so I decided to drop the mod

this wk I have been feeling buoyant ... the weather is sunny ... n is quite windy too ... I used to hate windy weather in Sweden ... because it was dreadful

i remembered cycling in Sweden with Jane ... n the wind almost knocked her bike off the road ... after tt I started to fall sick ...

ya ... memories of Sweden still came back on and off ... i could still remember them vividly

I really like Jan and Feb ... the weather is cool n sunny, and I feel really upbeat ... the best ting one could do on a sunny afternoon is to lie down on a sandy beach n just waste the afternoon away ... life can be rejuveinating when we waste it away sometime

find it quite odd tt I nvr realli bothered to read up abt the tsunamis ... when most people in my family r quite keen on catching the documentary and interview programs abt the disaster ... but realli I could rather not read about it ... because all I could do is to donate $$$ for the disaster, n yet I will never be sure tt the $$$ will reach the person in need

I really wanted to help ... becuz it dreadful to live without hope ... without the basic necessities of life ... n i'm quite frustrated tt all I cld do is to donate $$$ becuz I have to tink abt the project all day

prof Urs has high hope on my project ... so I don want to disappoint him ... but the project is still in limbo ... but things will improve by late Feb ...

Singapore vs Indonesia in the Tiger Cup Final ... glad tt the tickets are sold out ... I hope Singapore win ... but realli now I no longer a passionate fans as before ... my heart is "donated" to Arsenal haha

still hav 2 birthday presents to shop for ... n I alreadi late for both of them ... hopefully i cld finish the shopping by nxt wk

still stuck with Sammi Cheng's songs ... songs belonging to her album ... it's pretty strange tt it's oni of late tt I started to hear her songs ... since Rachel first lent me one of Sammi's album ... n yes i have stopped listening to R&B, dance n musics n stuff ... until I get realli sick of Sammi


Lyrics of the week:

我在天空中飘向东又飘向西 带着某人的回忆 可是落地之后是灾难还是好运
我想也不一定 如果我是一个精灵 忘了上一秒钟的事情 做个没有回忆的人
可不可以 心里有云 身体很轻 是上帝给我一个假期 一个人飞是一种美丽
让我在天空飞簷走壁 半空中我问我降落的心 是不是忘记了心痛的事情
哪里是我的降落点 让我来决定 半空中我和我降落的心 去寻找另外一个天地
这一次我一定要告诉自己 命中红心 人在爱情的空窗期要一个梦
要去外面吹点风 请让我一个人去寻找万里晴空 去找我的笑容 半空中我很自由
一想起你就眼睛红 也许最后落点不同 也许会重逢
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Bad Patch ...

the first week of January has delivered bad news ... the so called bad patch for me ... guess some of the bad luck of December has spilled over to 2005 ...

but I supposed I will hit purple patch soon ... life can't b so mean to me ... tt's wat I always feel ... but I'm too optimistic alreadi ... n now when all these bad stuff hit me ... I'm quite dumbfounded ...

my prof was quite sad ... when I told him we couldn't get results from the experiment ... he decided it wld b too risky to continue ... I think so too ... so we abandon the initial project ... both of us were quite sad ... we were looking forward to it ... but I suppsoed learning to let go is an art ...

if 2004 is about travelling ... I supposed 2005 is abt ... erm studying ...

i realli hav no choice ... but it oni a bz 4 mths ... i have given Sat gathering a miss, sunday gym a miss and i haven't been shopping much over December

everyday I have to wake up earli ... guess i wake up earlier den the sun ... anyway the sun doesn't wake up these days ... which doesn't matter anyway ... I'm not gg to the beach anyway ... come May after my exam ... guess I will laze around at the beach ... juz enjoying the sun, the waves, the sands, the beautiful "scenery" ... worrying abt nothing ... right now everyday I'm just obsessed with

DOWNLOADING journals ... n reading them ... n den tinking whether it applied to my experiment ... i nvr read so much journals in my life ... I nvr thot i need to read them ... I never nvr them during my last 3 yrs

CNY is realli not far away ... but I hope it would come later ... becuz CNY comes in February ... n my proj is still in limbo ... i think i took too much risk ... by leaving everything to the last minute ... but I shall not watched myself get burnt

was taking the train back with Audrey yst ... was telling her how hungry I was ... I was realli hungry ... I think I cld hardly walk ... den I realised even in the worst scenario ... at least our fundamentals are being met ... there realli nothing to complain

Enjoy 2005 !!!
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2004 mabbe a bad year ... but 2005 will b betta

2004 ended with the tsunamis n plenty of rain ... it's nice to see people willingly to pool in $$$ & volunteer their service in this time of needs

it's devastating

a bad event to end the year

i think of life lost ... dreams unfufilled ... family broken ... life disrupted ... it's hard to b optimistic realli ... if we are in their shoes ... but hopefully time will ease the pain

Time always does

have a nice time frm Christmas to New Year ... though at times I was still feeling sad + disappointed abt my results ... 2004 wasn't a bad yr for me

but there were impt events that left me disappointed ... but den I have my own share of luck ... like having people to drive me to my hostel on a cold nite in Belgium ... like having my laptop returned when I lost it ... so I shldn't b complaining

2005 started well ... my new year wishes will be:

1) Completing my honours year project
2) Improving my korean movies webpage
3) Picking up korean
4) Maintaining relationship with my friends
5) Arsenal to win the Champion League =)
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