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It's all over ...

checking out the results turned out to be
quite a stressful tis time round

i used to be quite cool abt it when I was
in my first 2 years

but tis time round ... it was crucial ... v crucial ...
i wanted to graduate with a second upper
honours

n my dream comes true

after April 29 ... everything seemed beautiful once
again ...

my planning was disastrous ... it was a v BIG
gamble ... if I lost my second upper den I
oni got myself to blame ... but at last I'm
vindicated

talked to Steven juz last nite ... "in the end, maybe
a few years later, the grade doesn't realli matter"
exactly, i'm glad i din mug during my undergrad
life ... at times I was lazy but i muz admit
i have my own share of luck

after April 29 ... it was holiday after holiday ...
nothing to think abt ... so I cherish n enjoy life
a lot more

sometimes I tink abt life a bit more ... noticed the smile
of the strangers on the street

I havent do it for a long while ... I used to enjoy
juz travelling ... noticing the expression of pple

common question is: "so wat do u intend to do nxt"

prof urs asked me, chee feng asked me ... a lot of pple
asked me tis question ... my answer is as tentative as
ever

i have a lot of interests and ambitions, as a child I wanted
to be one of the three: "a lawyer, scientist or a pilot"

my pilot dream is over ... becuz my eyesight is bloody
poor

i cld be a scientist if i wanted to ... but i feared boredom
and isolation

i need a job tt gives me satisfaction, offers me the chance
to work in a team as well as mental stimulation

no doubt .. being a scientist is a childhood dream ... but
at tis pt in time I'm nt thoroughly convinced

as a child ... I noe wat I wan ... n I nvr accept anything less;
now I refused to make a decision until I have a strong
feeling in wat I'm engaging

but 2005 has been gd so far ... best decision was to work
with prof Urs ... he was like a father to me ... I felt sad
knowing tt I will most probably nt have a fatherly figure
to look after me anymore

eugene chided me a lot yst ... he was glad tt he got his
second upper ... i hav nvr seen eugene uttered so much crap

guobao was complaining y we got diff grade for 1 mod which we
prepared together ... "because I power mah" was the reply, wat
can one do with this type of reply ... nothing much haha

stella did v welll but was a shave off first class oh ... but she
happy

overall ... my gp of friends have done well ... anyway I no longer
call some of my friends by their names, guy I call uncle, gal auntie
haha

back frm HK everything seemed rosy ... HK & Beijing were fun

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the moment I reached HK ... I felt as if I'm dreaming ... after more
den ten yrs I'm back again

i cld really smell HK's air ... n I felt v gud abt it

HK is v gud for shopping ... but the first few days the itch
to shop nvr realli entered me

was hungry for food ... becuz I have nvr eaten HK dim sum
for a long long time

sinwah is a good host ... 100% dedicated ... brought of us
to all the gd places ...n saved us lotsa of $$$

the first 3 days in HK were spent on sightseein ... din spend
any $$$ on shopping

Beijing was nxt ... it's a bit surrealistic attending a guided
tour in Cantonese ... don realli understand much ... but
sinwah was there to translate for me ... so lunch with
group of pple who spoke Cantonese was strange, v strange
... but in the end it's OK ... though the feeling is v artificial,
quite unnatural

beijing was a history lesson ... din realli spend much ...
BECUZ ALL I WANTED WAS TO SPEND ALL MY
FORTURNE IN HK!!!

5 days later ... back in HK i shopped like crazy ... if u
can't shop in HK ... u realli have a prob .... singapore
seemed much more inferior in the department of
shopping

met up with my HK relatives ... my aunts were v cool ... I
even asked my aunt to practise tarot card on me ... we
have 2 nites of fun ... i will alwae remember their warmth

the last day in HK ... was spent shopping ... n there were
too much stuff to buy ... i told yuansong/steven tt
the longer we stayed in the street ... the more $$$ we
will spend ... but I was happy with my buy

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back in Singapore ... i spent one day resting ... the next day
watching nabi, a film tt I realli wanted to buy in 2001

now in 2005, I finally had a copy of nabi on my desk

pls, nabi is not nabae ... it's korean for butterfly

nabi is the most underrated film tt I have watched n
farenheit 911 is the most overrated film tt I have seen

eugene told me wanying read my blog ... chunkiat aka yandao
asked me to update my blog ... sorry for the delay
I juz got back frm holiday mah

there were plenty to write ... but I don have a notebook ...
I am no authentic bio student ... so I don remember
a lot of tings tt I wished I cld write

bought a champagne juz hrs ago ... it time to pop n celebrate
... before I forget ... I promised hansing her gelato ... so
i beta write it here

tt all for now ... will write more in the days to come ... (wanying:
will write more juicy stuff if the mood arises ya)

gud nite everyone back to top?

Finally ...

Sunday 8 May 2005

went clearing out my room in hostel … Clive has vacated his room … so the room was really empty … my family were helping me cleared out the room … as usual they were darn efficient … I’m alwae the slow one … v relaxed … alwae taking my own sweet timemy room were cleared in 15 minutes I supposed … if I was to clear the room myself it will take hoursbecause I will look through every bits of paper … fold my clothes … den I will tink abt the time tt I spent in the room … my cousin was so frustrated when he cleared the room with me when we were youngerit was sad to say goodbye anyway … guobao has moved to extension … so I passed her stuff to mavis … who was still packing … gosh she got more stuff den I hadwent back home … waiting for Arsenal vs Liverpool matchmy cousin is a Liverpool fan, so we watched it together … REYES scored … he is gg to be a Arsenal legend in times to come
Anyway tt was it … the week lies ahead with plenty to do

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it’s Friday now … 4 more tuitions to go … will rot on Monday den leave for Hongkonghow will hongkong be like? I haven’t been there for a long long time

I missed the porridge … tt time I was staying in soya street … den tt was this porridge store … super gud !!!

Anyway I have been earning $$$ for the trip … so many tuitions … n so many things to mark … it’s quite crazy

Yuansong said the coming trip will b a luxury trip … all 5 stars hotel … but ex leh

Arsenal vs Everton was a match I missed … shldn’t has missed tt really …both of my students have the same name, Jonathan, but they have diff personality … young Jonathan is a curious kid who is hardworking … one year older Jonathan is a basketball enthusiast, a cheeky guy but realli slack, he reminded me of my former student youyi

Anyway I nvr pressured my students too much … I just told den u must noe when to work hard … u muz oso have fun … I don believe in mugging becuz life is short … there r plenty of tings to do … plenty of tings to accomplish … keeping my life exciting is one way to b happimet up with Kian Leng on Tuesday, this was oni my third meetings with frenzs after the exam … it is really the busiest post exam period tt I ever had … anyway watched ‘House of Wax’ – highly recommended … KL rarely jio me to watch horror movie so I was really surprised … din even check the synopsis … KY don do tis type of tings …din even ate lunch … so I was in the theatre munching my subway sandwich … after which I was really fullI missed meatball so I bought a meatball sandwich … jayce liked meatball a lot … back in Sweden jayce used to buy it frequently … I rarely does … becuz I’m too much of the experimentor … I tried all everything … sometime I will find a few things tt I really liked … n den I will stick with den for a while

yoshinowa no longer served Mango Tea … it was one of the bez beverage … really a pity … so KL n me juz ate some prawn fritters n drank peach Tea instead … talked abt horses, Farenheitt 911 n stuff … times flies … someone I met in gym,a former jockey, told me I got the built of a jockey … but horse racing is a cruel sport … an exploitation … I will nvr advocate tis !!! Farenheit 911 was a good film, a documentary, it abt crazy Bush, but the director is way over the top, some festival judges even had the bottle to name it best picture … wat a shamble !!!so I luv Tuesday … wed was spent at the tour agency, giving tuition …

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Having a viral infection … hope I recovered tmr (dream of an optimist) … unlikely though … most prob will c a doc den … he will prescribe some miracle pills n I will b back to eating fast food haha!!!

Y is fast food so good??? perhaps becuz bad stuffs are alwae much more tempting???

four leaves has a new bread called ‘Café Miracle’ … tasted like miracle … well almost … nt becuz it realli fantasti … rather becuz they used to has an old version of the bread called ‘Café XXX’ … so when Miracle came out … I thot it was ‘Café XXX’ … n the first mouthful was … SURPRISE, SURPRISE … perhaps miracle is really a matter of perception … everyday can be a miracle … but it is nt always ez to tink tis way …

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it’s the end of Sunday … so pretty happy … earned quite a bit tis week enuff at least to cover my air fare for the tripit has been a week … becuz all my students were having exams… so at times it’s a bit stressful trying to cover their syllabus … especially when they haven’t been realli studying

anyway I’m quite happy tt some of my students r showing progress … I expect a lot frm my students becuz I don wan them to waste their time

my philosophy is - Make efficient use of ur time … so u will have more time for leisureanyway it 2 weeks of holidays waiting for me … how am I feeling? nt particularly excited … nt as excited as when I was gg to Amsterdam … I luv Amsterdam … it’s helluva nice plc… but HK will b interesting for me … the food especially … Stella has told me abt tings I MUS try !!!
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anyway tks to bryan + zhuzhen for chatting n advising me abt stuff tt has disturbed me for a long while … certain tings take time to resolve … my deepest wish is for things to be resolved … tks for ur concern + advise … in time I hope I can bring u guys good news hopefully tings will have u guys smiling !!!ya tt it for now … yorz guys have a wonderful vacation

signing off back to top?

I will always remember the sparkle in your eyes ...

"many times in my dreams, I dreamt abt
the mysterious figure in pink ... the overpowering
presence of her eyes ... years later it becomes
a reality, the same pair of eyes now looks at me
... is it a dream or is my reality nothing
more than just a dream?"

doing my last duty tmr, bring back lotsa of memories ...
from the time when I was juz an undergrad ... tis
was the first CCA I joined, so I couldn't forget
the beginnings

i have to give my lab dinner a miss becuz doing
tis last duty was to impt for me ... i couldn't miss
it becuz it was sth tt cld nt b taken away frm me

i started doing duty as an understudy v
raw, quite uncertain of my duty .. so looking
back there is this sweetness which I can savour ...
along the way I met pple which I could nvr forget

such memories is invaluable ... I cld nvr exchange it
for anything else

nt even for Arsenal winning the champions' league

some pple asked "when did I start supporting
Arsenal" ... I told them ... I couldn't remember
exactly

mabbe it was Ljungberg ... the Swedish star who
plays for Arsenal ... I alwae have tis ting
with Sweden ... it hard to explain ... so in the end
mabbe inevitably ... I went Sweden for my exchange

I couldn't trace the beginning of my support for arsenal,
becuz one can't trace the beginning of true passion, like love,
it happened quietly, like a dream ... until it overwhelms
u... becomes part of u

Arsene Wenger is a warrior ... tt I admired a lot ... oni AW
has enuff bottle to style a team tt plays such imaginative
football ... the moment I support Arsenal .. I knew it forever

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"the moment I looked into your eyes ... my world stopped
... standing beside you ... I never knew I
would lose you forever ... "

Desaru was fun ... the weather was fantastic ... was there
with my cousins and relatives ... the beach was small
but it is better than Sentosa

the pple there was nice too ... the helpdesk pple were
realli helpful ... went to watch fireflies, laze
ard in the pool ... ostrich farm n the beach ...
basically juz enjoying the weather

I luv the sun ... but mum don ... but anyway it
was a nice trip

watching the fireflies realli felt like celebrating
Christmas earlier ... the flies just sparkles on the
leaves of the trees ... n our boat driver has
to splash water on them ... before they will sparkle
ard

I was told tt those fireflies tt exists in water
r of a different species ... but honestly I
donno whether the hotel pple smoked me or not ...
after all during my poster presentation ... I oso
smoked pple ... so of cuz I'm a bit skeptical

anyway it's a perfect getaway after months of
hard work ... before May life hasn't been so
tough for a while

Now I felt so relax ... it's like I'm released frm prison

promised lotsa pple tt i will meet up with them ...
guohui, tianfong, koh siang, siang yong, chee hong,
rong zhang, shiji, shuting, rachel, jayce ... n the list
juz goes on ... tink there no pt writing everyone name
... rubbish rite

prof asked me wat I'm gg to do upon graduation ...
still the same two things either virology or dermatology

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"if we ever meet again ... wat will happen?"

there hasn't been a lot of outings ... met up with Abel on
thurs ... n den i spent sat giving tuition n having
dinner with mum

i hav been giving tuition ... a lot ... a lot of times ...

Wednesday, Saturday, Sunday and then
coming monday, wednesday, thurs, fri n sun
den i will b off to HK

can't wait for HK food ... if anyone of u guys need
anything frm HK juz tell me k, i will try
to get them from u

anyway ... my new student has been pretty
curious ... n his parents treated me quite well

so i have no qualms abt it ... it v strange
becuz I havent been meeting a lot of frenzs
lately

there still doesn't seem to be enuff time + $$$

every outing cuzs $$$ ... n $$$ is tight

but i wan to meet all my frenzs before i started work

I need to work soon ... cuz I need to go London
when Arsenal new stadium opens ... it will be
like ... whoa ... the bez stadium in europe

only AW has the bottle to build the best stadium
in Europe

only AW can

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"no longer do I dreamt of you in my sleep ... but
at dawn ... the single ray of light reminds me
of your presence"

anyway Dick "how r u doing, meet up soon yah"
Jayce "where r u gg for holiday"
Zhuzhen "how has ur holiday been"

good nite ... sleep tight back to top?

I can see the rainbow …

finally done with my last pp … yeah … the last exam for
undergrad … don exactly how it feels … but at tt pt in
time … upon completion of my free radicals exam … I
felt like a man liberated...

liberated frm the pain of doing lab works, thesis, all the
written paper … the crazy deadlines … n oh wat liberation!!!
it din really matter … tt free rad. exam wasn’t quite for the
sane … at 4:30 pm on Friday … it was time to celebrate
time to forget everything … n savoured the sweetness of those
mths of bitterness …

it was like seeing a rainbow … the sheer joy when I first
saw a rainbow … seemingly rays of colours on the sky
almost like magic … it is tis magical quality of life tt I
alwae relished ... mabbe it hard to comprehend ... but
magic is my quest for life

went to chill out with Eugene + GB for a while …
at Munchie Monkey … den had my tuition session …
a routine Friday session with the class … after tt it was
movie time with RF + GB

donno when was the last time I saw a movie … it might be”Evil”
, a quality Swedish movie, that was really inspiring …watched it
with Kian Leng sometime in Early March I supposed

anyway after movie … we went for karaoke all the way till
6 am in the morning … so it was rather crazy …
some of us never even slept for two day
swent back to hall …n slept till 10:30 in the morning …
still need to go desaru tdy I wonder how it will b like when
the feeling of completing my undergrad course has sunk in
… I tink I will b rather sad becuz no matter how much
I hate honours year … I love to be with my friends .. n
of course the freedom tt come with studying
but circumstances change n we move on … tt perhaps is
the inevitability of lifebut till den … it time to enjoy for a while

wanna do some outdoor activities n enjoy myself in the sun
… becuz I really missed it … den I wanna take more photos
… n there r frenzs I wanted to catch up with
as they say … life is short … live it to the fullest back to top?