Sunshine Butterfly

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Sep 7 1980
Likes: Arsenal, Technopop, The Cataracs, Adele, Pedro Almodovar, Sodagreen

Quotes:
"If you eat caviar every day it's difficult to return to sausages."
"A football team is like a beautiful woman. When you do not tell her, she forgets she is beautiful."
"If you do not believe you can do it then you have no chance at all."

Saturday, July 30, 2005 @ 7:42 PM

Quotations ...

was reading thru a Photoshop manual n
there were surprisingly plenty of nice
quotations

u seldom get tt in a manual, more so in
a software manual

quotations r added incentive in a manual

cool =), here r some of them

'You often have to fix the biggest problem before you can even see
what the other problems are'

'when all u have is a hammer, everything starts to like a nail'

tis wk was "Finding-A-Job" week

a lot of pple have asked n commented:

"how job searching? got a job"

"u r rich hor ... take ur time to find a job"

& other comments ... all along the same line

personally, I'm still trying hard to find a suitable
job, a job I will like a lot

but I'm tkful to a few persons though ... brian
for volunteering to vet thru n amend my
resume, vincent for saying tt he will
help me ask abt job openings in DSO

tks all yah

rite now, I won't consider taking up a sales job

I have no feel for the job rite now ...

I see myself being in the research line for
6 years or so ... perferably in the dermatology
field

tt the plan for now

will send out a few more applications by Saturday, n
den wait for invitations for interview

_________________________

have monday pretty planned up ... supposed to
b karaoke den swimming at brian's plc

but the heavy rain spoilt part of the plan ... ended
up gg back home after karaoke becuz I still gonna teach
at nite

singing with bryan + pal was pure fun

bryan is quite a sport ... a cool karaoke khaki ... was
kinda surprised when he jio me for karaoke ... realli LUV
his jacuzzi at his condo ... the jet was so powerful

i rarely listen to guy's song ... ladies can sing beta n
with more feel but guys can rap beta

but i luv zhang yu sheng's song ... they r v unique
... n the lyrics r simple n philosophical .
.. after so many yrs the songs still sound v crisp n fresh

monday was tiring after a 3 hrs tuition ... alwae
v tired after tuition ... somehow i burnt all
my energy within the 3 hrs

class tuition r more tiring though ... got to teach, maintain discipline
n basically makes everyone happy

seemed like I have been teaching for a long, long
time ... some pple called me the Tuition KiNG ...
but I'm grateful tt Tuition provided me with
the $$$ for my undergrad life, for my SEP

without TuiTion perhaps my undergrad
life will b less enjoyable, less happening

met tze-chien over for tea at Lot1 .... it was supposed
to b lunch ... but tze-chien was too engrossed
with his work

delifrance had a total make-over ... the tables r
no longer round ... fine squarish wooden tables replaced
them ... the desserts costed $20 plus dollars ...
$20 for desserts oni u noe ...

but the aircon was cool ... in fact too cold ... tt both
of us were shivering ... n the person serving us
kept looking into my eyes tt I felt a bit uncomfortable

nvr knew tze-chien was into photoshop ... realises tt
learning photoshop is realli an art itself

I am nt a born artist ... but I appreciate the aesthetic
sense of ting ... n I luv to "play"with colours

to me beauty gives quality n meaning to one's life

but I wasn't quite able to draw as a child, I even got
a personal art's tutor to teach me ... but I cld star at the
pp for one fREaking DaY n I still cldn't draw

somehow I cldn't express myself thru drawing ...
n it was an agony ... it truly was

I like art but my inability to do it well ate into
me

it was my trickery however, tt always got me pass
arts lesson during sec sch

I cld make use of carbon paper to actualli
trace my drawing ... n produced some astonishing
work thru tis "technique"

in writer's term ... tt shd b plagiarising

somehow i always have this luck ... even
when I ended in a rut ... there was alwae
plenty of opportunities or pple to help me

when my hse bought a copier ... it
was ez for me to do tis form of "Plagiarising"

somehow I wasn't quite liberated wheN
I diN have to take Arts during upper SeC ...

though I din know quite well how to
draw ... i still love art

so I was quite happy when I finally got
to see Starry Starry nite in Berlin
last April.

it was like a dream come true ...
like being a child again ... when u finally
got the toy u wanted to have

it's a painting tt is touching both
in its creation n the actual artpiece itself

...................

later at nite ... met some of my uni frenzs
for karaoke

pals guobao, raofeng n stella were there... cousin
noi n guobao's bf joined sometimes later

RF was a bit over the top den ... we were
joking tt he was drunk

the last time we sang together ... it was like during
our last pp ... we sang till 6 am tt time

tis time ard it was equalli fun... 5hrs of singing

towards the last hr i hardly sang ... ended up talking
to Stella

alwae thought she cld b a gd actress ... so I asked
her whether she had ever considered tt

she joked tt she was waiting to be my actress when
I become director in the near future ... there were
so many things I wanted to do ... being a director
is actualli one of them

but the direction I'm gg means tt
I won't have much of the chance ... unless
I quit being a scientist, or quit dreaming
to b a lawyer

n I cldn't forgo any of the above ... so I knew
wat I cld do

friday was audrey's last day at work ... so prof
invited the whole lab for a lunch

strangely enuff ... sitting my beside prof I felt tt I had
an inertia in communicating w him ... mabbe it becuz
I haven realli seem him in a while

the lab is realli expanding ... n I cld notice
the satisfied look in prof's face

Audrey, michie n priscilla wanted to "fight and
quarrel" in front of prof n see how he responded
... I was so looking forward to their "play" but
ended up they r all committee member of NATO
... SO DISAPPOINTING !!!

August will b interesting ... the EPL will start, my powercraft
course will start soon
... n mabbe I will get a job by then ...

can't wait for EPL to start... hope everyone
is looking forward to August

Friday, July 22, 2005 @ 11:14 PM

August approaches !!!

July came n passed v quickly

We are onto the last week of July

July was abt commencement, big purchases,
refusal to attend insurance's interviews,
mtg deadline

June is abt gatherings, July is abt more
"serious"stuff but equalli impt

July started finely, the weather was sunny
n bright to begin with

mid-July is rainy, gloomy n unpredictable

it has been a crazy week, cooped up at home
... trying to finish research on a publication
which I promised prof

I'm glad is done ... it's a massive task ... but
at least it's completed n I'm glad I delivered
wat I promised

there plenty to look forward to ... gonna start
looking for job intensively

as usual I promised zhuzhen to treat her to a
drink ... so I will do tt ... n the gathering which
I promised to organise

den it's time to do some outdoor activities ...
but tt realli depends on the sun

anyway glad tt I've rejected all the insurance
companies

the final straw was when AIA duped me into
attending their recruitment talk

tt realli pissed me off ... if they r frank with me
i don mind juz dropping by and hear what they
have to offer ... but KY don like underhand
tactics ... oni loser does tt

I was in a cab on my way to my student's hse
when I met tis cab-driver

Driver: gg back frm sch

Me: no lah, on my way to giving tuition

Driver: u still studying?

Me: no lah, I have graduated

Driver: frm poly

Me: no NUS, uncle I alreadi 25 liao

Driver: tink u got no worries ... tt y din age

where got pple no worries wan ??? mb
sometimes I'm a bit childish tt y I looks
young

donno ... though ... perhaps in the gene ...
I was like the NCC cadet when I was
wearing the army uniform ... now I looks
more like the poly grad den uni grad ...
so funny

until I got a job ... I cldn't shop much

hav nt shopping for quite a while ... luckily
I cldn't shop with CH last week ... if
nt it MIGHT b a Big HOLE in my pocket

my shopping list includes (1) a SONY
earphone (2) 1 year subscription to
outdoor photography (3) Reduced MMC
card for my mobile (4) blades (5) Arsene
Wenger: The professor (6) Teva slipper

Pls don go n buy anything for me though
... I rather u buy me sth more ex ... like
an AIR TICKET to Cape Town ... I will
b EXTREMELY pleased

nxt wk have to send up more resume ...
find potential scholarships to apply ...
n brace myself for more gatherings

uncle needs my help to buy a digital
camera ... I luv to b the "acquisition
manager"

mabbe it will b like resumes, karaoke,
movies, photography, swimming n mabbe
meddling ard with Photoshop n dreamweaver

looking forward to mtg Tze + pals

n singing with GB, RF, Stella

tt MIGHT happen nxt week

can't realli imagine starting to work ... can't
imagine waking up early to work ...

nvr realli woke up early for much of undergrad
life

but the $$$ will help ... n hopefully the job
satisfaction will help

if i got a sponsorship to study in UK ... it will
b a gud ting

don realli like UK a lot ... but watching
Arsenal every Sat wil more den compensate
tt

well the future will be here soon enuff ...
let's see how ... till den I enjoy the present

Thursday, July 14, 2005 @ 10:01 PM

Git aka Feathers in the wind ...

June n July r the season of big-budget movies - the
blockbusters

some blockbusters r gud ... some r mediocre

blockbusters deliver the punch, the adrenaline
rush ... let u the experience sth u might nt
do in ur real-life

but sometimes the feel u get frm blockbusters
might nt b entirely fresh

tt where low budget films or foreign films
come into the picture

I have some DVDs on my desk so I'm trying
to find time to watch it

usually I nvr get to finish all the DVDs I bought/
borrowed

din always get the time ... there r more
impt tings to do sometimes

on Thursday ... managed to watch 'Feathers in the
wind' - a low budget film which delivered superbly

it has the best ending, the most perfect ending
I have seem so far

I always felt tt the end is always more impt
den the beginning ... in fact tt is my philosophy
in life

as a person ... I din quite knew how to give
out, I nvr luv to ... becuz my concept is tt
I will nvr gave out tings I started ...

giving out was an alien concept for me ...

but everyone dreamt of the happy end ...
sometimes it might nt always b the case

tis week has been rather gloomy ... it juz
rains and rains

luckily it wasn't my commencement ...
it wld b v difficult to take foto den

went to Yuan song's commencement ...
n saw a few pple including sec sch
frenz, Aik Boon

it was however quite a dark day for me

strangely all my dark days usually started
perfectly when I woke up in the morning

somehow tings juz went awry

anyway I was conned into attending
some insurance recruitment talk ... den
I happened to b the first one to reach
the seminar room

they told me the seminar will start at
6:30pm ... I reached there ... I was the
first one

when had I ever b tis early for a "lecture"?

anyway they asked me to have some
food first

I tried to eat some food ... the food was oki ... but
I was kinda sad so I din eat much

den they asked me to sit infront ... so i oki
lor ... anything lor, i juz bo chap ... but ended
up I became the centre of attention becuz
all the other pple in the crowd was older

n den becuz I got tis boyish look ... I seemed
even younger

almost every speaker seemed to look at me
in the eye ... n told me insurance will b
the right career ... haiz.....

but the day end quite well ... bumped into
SEP frenz, Jane, nvr saw her for quite a while ... we
chatted at the bakery shop juz for a while

supposed to meet Tze Chien n Hansing for
initial D but has to give it a miss becuz of
the insurance talk ... guess I'm juz nt
fated to watch initial D

the NKF saga juz happened in a flash,
almost without warning, the whole
saga was quite intriguing

n the public response was immediate
n furious

they felt cheated, they shd have cooled
it

honestly it was a time bomb waiting to
explode

the sooner it happened ... the beta it is

I believe a big setback is always gud ...
a big shakeup can always guide
an organisation to progress in
the correct direction

will I ever b an insurance agent?

don tink it's quite possible, it never
occured in my mind ... n right now
I don hav a feel for the job

most of my cousins tink I'm more of
a thinking person den a feeling
person

which is nt quite correct ... I always
appeared v logical in my explanations
n my advices

when pple asked me for advices ...
I always tried to tidy up the situation
for them

but tt does not mean I'm nt a feeling
person ... I learnt to balance my
emotions

but when I need to make an impt
decision ... I listen to my inner
voice ... sometimes ones inner voice
n feel r more accurate den all the datas
one has

in watever career I ended up
doing , I hope I can be useful
in my position, if I can make
an impact on people's life ... I
will definitely look back with
a smile on my face

nxt week will b an empty week ...
I have postponed all gatherings/appointments
becuz I realli need to finish my review
paper

mum nagging becuz I haven got
a job ... but I have my priorities
n I will need to clear other impt stuff
first ... the job will come when I'm ready

sometimes I tink I'm too self-assured tt
I get on people's nerve

Friday, July 08, 2005 @ 12:25 AM

Conceptual leap

a large part of our life is repetition ... but sometime
we made conceptual leap

when we wan to achieve sth, or when we one to
progress or when our life is in a mess

i always have a different way of handling tings ...
a hard to grasp personality ... but my weirdness
is repetitive

a last minute king ... I thrived on delaying,
procrastinating till the last min ... it's NEVER
a good way of handling ting ... gud ting is
tt I was nvr punished ... the down side is tt
I kept repeating the same pattern

a crazy honours year, 10 mods + 1 proj within
a year ... due to my 'faulty' planning cld
teach me a ting or two abt last minute

there was sth tt I wished to resolve ... it was
sth dear to me ... I finally resolved it last wk

it took a conceptual leap to resolve it ... a rather
painful measure ... but I had to do it
becuz it was the sec bez ting to do

mb I cld fly with tis being resolved ... we
shall see

______________________

commencement was on fri ... I was
looking forward to it

as a child ... I have images of grad
throwing their "grad-hat"up in the
sky

but I nvr thot so much abt gg to
uni

my form teacher in pri sch used to
ask me abt my ambition ... I said
I wanted to b a cab driver

she was obviously v disappointed

den later on in life ... I wanted to
b one of the 3 professions : lawyer,
scientist or pilot

my eyesight was poor since young ...
so pilot was out

I was disappointed when my cousin
din go for the pilot test for RSAF

somehow bet lawyer n scientist ...
I embarked on the route to b
a scientist

as a child I had to fight a lot of
'battle' ... there were turbulent
periods ... sometimes I wished there
wld b pple by my side to help or
hear me out ... perhaps tt y I wanted
to b a lawyer ... so tt I cld b of help

being able to help is a gift ... I always
feel tis happiness when I help someone

if I'm a successful scientist nxt time
I MIGHT b a lawyer after tt ... sometimes
I wished everything I wanted to b ...
but it is always nt quite possible

perhaps ONE has to always learn to be
contented

was real bz during commencement ...
so much fotos to b taken ...

cousin Noi helped me a lot with
the wearing of the gown

every moment was special

Yuansong, Chunkiat, sinwah n even Steven
were at my commencement ... I was surprised
to see Steven at the commencement though
... realli surprised ...

Ivy, Cheehong, Rongzhang, Vincent, Tze Chien
were there too

was realli happy to see a lot of my close pals
down

except time wasn't realli enuff ... busy shuffling
ard to take pics ... before everyone left

but time juz wasn't enuff ... I still can tink of perhaps
ten pple I din hav time to take foto with

but everyone was v happy ... it was a contrast to
March when everyone was struggling for
thesis

one of my examiner even told his student ... he was
surprised I managed to complete my thesis

in Feb ... my project seemed to b heading towards
doom

din quite understand y suddenly my uni life had
become lidat

but I'm quite blessed realli ... nt gloating but I'm
seldom punished for my mistake ... n there
always seemed to b someone who will help me
when tings get realli worst

I will leave NUS with memories of
those wonderful friendships I hav

for me ... I treasured a lot of my frenzs
tt crossed my paths

without den ... my uni life will b less
fruitful, less happening, less enjoyable ...
monotonus n flat

I wanted to go back to lab to take pics with Prof, Michie
& audrey ... but time wasn't enuff ... prof was
wondering y i din go back to lab

after tt it was dinner time with my mom & relatives
... my legs were realli tired ... luckily it was buffet so
i need nt have to make the decision on wat to eat

all my cousins were there ... we had a drink after

Sat was cool ... mtg my SF project mates for a trip
to JB ... KS had a car so she drove us ard JB

TF & YK was absent ... but still it was plenty of fun

the food was nice ... n singing karaoke with KS &
GH was pure fun !!! we cld sing for longer
without time constraint

the karaoke in JB gave me quite a homely feeling,
the staff was cool & friendly though there was
an electric shutdown half way thru our session, damn
... anyway there was this funny incident:

KS saw a cockroach at the corner of the room

Me: Can u pls called the staff to get rid of the cockroach
, I'm bloody scared of cockroach

The staff came in

KS: Can u pls remove the cockroach beside the sofa

Staff (Guy): It's nt call cockroach ... we call it
Xiao Qiang

KS: so it's ur pet

Me: Can u pls remove ur pet (laughing)

Staff: all rite I go n fetch the broom

KS: can u juz use a piece of paper cuz if u
sweep it ... it might run again

Staff: it won't run ... it will fly

Me: HAhahaha

KS: den can u please use the piece of paper

Staff: I told u I scared alreadi mah .....

had dinner at Taman Sentosa ... the food were nice ...
as a child I thot the Sentosa in JB were lidat of
Singapore ... so of cuz I was in for a disappointment

but now I kinda liked it rustic charm n its gd food

we sat n talked ... n it had been a whole four years

felt v poignant when I wrote the previous sentence

so Sat was over juz lidat

_______________________

met one of my former student's mother at the mkt
... n it reminded me of the 3 yrs I spent teaching
his son

she asked me to counsel her son ... I realli wished
I haven't forgotten all my JC stuff so I cld
teach her son n try to help him for his Á'level

but the reality is I cldn't remember

I remembered the nice bbq, the food n dessert
her family used to serve me

I cld still remember those 3 yrs sweetly

I'm more of an outdoor person ... so sitting down
for hours is nt alwae v tolerable ... but seeing
my students improving n performing realli
inspired me ... I guessed tt was how I have taught 6
yrs of tuition

__________________________

pls do view my commencement fotos ... it's at
www.koreanmovie.org/pg

til den ... adieus

Saturday, July 02, 2005 @ 12:25 AM

if i have it all over again, I wldn't change a thing

tis has been a busy, busy week ... but it's a satisfying one

frenzs have asked, prof has asked ... whether I'm starting
to get bored

right now ... I'm still pretty excited n happy abt the
freedom which I have oni 2 mths again

it's like being liberated ... it has been a long time

but i shall nt remain the same old rubbish

wat i wanted to say is I have enjoyed May n June
v much ... I realised I still luv life a lot ... my
optimism hasn't quite faded away

but it's odd tt I'm still v bz

mum complained tt I spent too much time with
frenzs

even CK complained tt I tired myself too much

but there r so much things to do ... but I'm glad
tt I have fufilled a lot of promises

Swedish frenzs Karin & nini arrived on monday
... so I showed them ard ... it was pretty
last min ... but I'm glad tt they were v
happy abt all the places I brought den

surprisingly, I did not need to ask for directions
... so we ended Monday in a restaurant
in Chinatown talking abt wat we might
do for honeymoon =)

den after tt it was tuition till abt 11pm ... I
was realli realli tired

but my students were more tired den me ...
they were JET-LAGGED

I nvr suffered frm JET-LAGGED becuz
I'm a pig who slept bloody well in the
plane

I liked long distance flight ... I will usually sleep
until there r abt 6 hrs left ... juz enuff
for 2 movies

the nxt day ... Karin & her sister were off to malaysia
... they wanted to spend some times
in Tioman n den Kinabalu

spent tuesday afternoon watching
Mr & Mrs Smith with KL ... Angelina Jolie
is a gladiator-like actress who is more
alluring now den in the past

Marina Shopping mall has realli changed a lot
... the food court has a gorgeous view ... u
can even see the merlion ... overall
it muz b the food court with the best
view in Singapore

I wanted to run on Tuesday ... but can't
becuz I was trapped trying to shop ard
for some stuff

ran on Wednesday ... running actualli
brought back lotsa memories

sometimes I talked to my frenzs while
running ... sometimes I daydreamed
... on days I thot abt pretty memories

Wed nite met up with YS, SW n steven
at Marina ... it was like dine + movie ...
but I bought a cool tie tt is cheap but
w exquisite design

War of the world was oki for me ... but
it won't make my A list

as far as my memory cld serve me ...
four movies/films made my A list
(1) Talk to her
(2) Old boy
(3) Bungee Jumping of their own
(4) Ondskan

in at least three occasions ... I was so
close to missing den

funny ting life ... the ting u omost missed
might end up to be the most
valuable ting u might have

like a lot of tings ... one's opinion abt movie
is v subjective ... sometimes ambivalent ...
it realli depends on one's background, experience
n philosophy

most of the times ... reviews r craps ... I
donno y sometime we trust the reviews
so much ... hey ... it juz one person opinion

by thursday nite i was quite tired ... in fact
v tired .. but i was quite satisfied n happy

went back to NUS n collected my gown
as well as past some gifts to my lab
colleagues

realli have to send zhuzhen + KL for shopping
with me for the gift ... overall they liked
their gift

i was late when i met CH, SY, RZ, Ivy n BW
at Orchard

did a lot of talking ... so by 12am I was pretty
tired

BW suggested gg Devil's Bar but it a bit
odd for an Arsenal fan to contribute
to Man Yoo money pool ... I say NO

gown collection seemed a bit like
matriculation day ... minus the queue ...
minus the excitement from the uncertainity
... it made me tink abt the past 4 yrs

it has been great ... beta den JC days

i felt tt during my JC days ... my zest n
excitement for life wasn't quite there ...
perhaps the bz schedule juz suffocated
me

on the last day of my JC day ... I din quite
remember how I felt ... perhaps silently
glad tt it's all over

NUS offered me more freedom ... no one
tramples on my freedom ... I luv to lotsa
tings ... overall I enjoy managing my life
... I wilt when others try to manage mine

I asked myself wat were the 5 moments
tt I will always remember during my NUS
days??

they have to b 1) nite cycling during my
orientation in which I met pals like
Dick

2) doing my first NUS projects
with gp of unknowns ... we became quite
great frenzs ... having steamboat n
eating mooncake while working on the
project

3) watching the northern light,
experiencing spring, the seas of butterflies
flowers n the many parties
in Sweden

4) spending the last 3 mths in the lab ...
12 days on thesis writing n 3 days without
sleeping juz to wrap up my project

5) No. 5 is secret but is definitely something
I cherished a lot

overall ... if I have my NUS all over again ...
I wldn't change a ting

life generates a lot of wat if ... but they r
usually nt impt ... becuz at any one time
we can oni trust ourselves to make
the rite decision ... if we make a mistake
... the bez way is to learn frm it

anyway on friday ... i was with matthew
n Patrick ... went to JB becuz matthew
wanted to get a few of the priacy mkt
in Malaysia

I haven been to Whampoa for a long while
... was with mum on Sat nite ... there
were a huge crowd

but the food were gud ... I especially
liked the oyster omelette

I luv seafood a lot ... after all eating
muz b one of the pleasure in life

I asked cheefeng how he felt to be
leaving on Sunday for Australia

we were at the airport ... we had
similar feeling but diff intensity

our situation was a bit similar
... no 2 persons can experience
the same situation

I was sad leaving for Sweden ...
it was my own choice realli ... at
the pt. there was a intense
feeling ... a deep sense of sadness
... but I can't elaborate it here

anyway ... I told CF tt he will
b happy he made the right decision
... looking at the fotos of my
exchange

I'm reminded of the sweet experiences
n the nice pple I met ... n all
the frenzs I met

I'm sure CF will enjoy himself in Australia

tis week is Commencement week ...
commencement reminds me of VitC 'Graduation'

n tis has been a wonderful week ... a cool
morning spent at the Orchid Garden ...
two evenings with pals frm my JC ...

everything has ended v beautifully ... tt is all I
cld say ... mabbe cldn't make much sense to a
stranger reading tis ... but a bit of imagination
will help

all i cld say is - if I have my NUS life all over
again, I cldn't change a thing

working life will b diff ... but the future will b
here soon enuff ... till den I enjoy the present

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Saturday, July 30, 2005 @ 7:42 PM Quotations ... was reading thru a Photoshop manual n there were surprisingly plenty of nice quotations u seldom get tt in a manual, more so in a software manual quotations r added incentive in a manual cool =), here r some of them 'You often have to fix the biggest problem before you can even see what the other problems are' 'when all u have is a hammer, everything starts to like a nail' tis wk was "Finding-A-Job" week a lot of pple have asked n commented: "how job searching? got a job" "u r rich hor ... take ur time to find a job" & other comments ... all along the same line personally, I'm still trying hard to find a suitable job, a job I will like a lot but I'm tkful to a few persons though ... brian for volunteering to vet thru n amend my resume, vincent for saying tt he will help me ask abt job openings in DSO tks all yah rite now, I won't consider taking up a sales job I have no feel for the job rite now ... I see myself being in the research line for 6 years or so ... perferably in the dermatology field tt the plan for now will send out a few more applications by Saturday, n den wait for invitations for interview _________________________ have monday pretty planned up ... supposed to b karaoke den swimming at brian's plc but the heavy rain spoilt part of the plan ... ended up gg back home after karaoke becuz I still gonna teach at nite singing with bryan + pal was pure fun bryan is quite a sport ... a cool karaoke khaki ... was kinda surprised when he jio me for karaoke ... realli LUV his jacuzzi at his condo ... the jet was so powerful i rarely listen to guy's song ... ladies can sing beta n with more feel but guys can rap beta but i luv zhang yu sheng's song ... they r v unique ... n the lyrics r simple n philosophical . .. after so many yrs the songs still sound v crisp n fresh monday was tiring after a 3 hrs tuition ... alwae v tired after tuition ... somehow i burnt all my energy within the 3 hrs class tuition r more tiring though ... got to teach, maintain discipline n basically makes everyone happy seemed like I have been teaching for a long, long time ... some pple called me the Tuition KiNG ... but I'm grateful tt Tuition provided me with the $$$ for my undergrad life, for my SEP without TuiTion perhaps my undergrad life will b less enjoyable, less happening met tze-chien over for tea at Lot1 .... it was supposed to b lunch ... but tze-chien was too engrossed with his work delifrance had a total make-over ... the tables r no longer round ... fine squarish wooden tables replaced them ... the desserts costed $20 plus dollars ... $20 for desserts oni u noe ... but the aircon was cool ... in fact too cold ... tt both of us were shivering ... n the person serving us kept looking into my eyes tt I felt a bit uncomfortable nvr knew tze-chien was into photoshop ... realises tt learning photoshop is realli an art itself I am nt a born artist ... but I appreciate the aesthetic sense of ting ... n I luv to "play"with colours to me beauty gives quality n meaning to one's life but I wasn't quite able to draw as a child, I even got a personal art's tutor to teach me ... but I cld star at the pp for one fREaking DaY n I still cldn't draw somehow I cldn't express myself thru drawing ... n it was an agony ... it truly was I like art but my inability to do it well ate into me it was my trickery however, tt always got me pass arts lesson during sec sch I cld make use of carbon paper to actualli trace my drawing ... n produced some astonishing work thru tis "technique" in writer's term ... tt shd b plagiarising somehow i always have this luck ... even when I ended in a rut ... there was alwae plenty of opportunities or pple to help me when my hse bought a copier ... it was ez for me to do tis form of "Plagiarising" somehow I wasn't quite liberated wheN I diN have to take Arts during upper SeC ... though I din know quite well how to draw ... i still love art so I was quite happy when I finally got to see Starry Starry nite in Berlin last April. it was like a dream come true ... like being a child again ... when u finally got the toy u wanted to have it's a painting tt is touching both in its creation n the actual artpiece itself ................... later at nite ... met some of my uni frenzs for karaoke pals guobao, raofeng n stella were there... cousin noi n guobao's bf joined sometimes later RF was a bit over the top den ... we were joking tt he was drunk the last time we sang together ... it was like during our last pp ... we sang till 6 am tt time tis time ard it was equalli fun... 5hrs of singing towards the last hr i hardly sang ... ended up talking to Stella alwae thought she cld b a gd actress ... so I asked her whether she had ever considered tt she joked tt she was waiting to be my actress when I become director in the near future ... there were so many things I wanted to do ... being a director is actualli one of them but the direction I'm gg means tt I won't have much of the chance ... unless I quit being a scientist, or quit dreaming to b a lawyer n I cldn't forgo any of the above ... so I knew wat I cld do friday was audrey's last day at work ... so prof invited the whole lab for a lunch strangely enuff ... sitting my beside prof I felt tt I had an inertia in communicating w him ... mabbe it becuz I haven realli seem him in a while the lab is realli expanding ... n I cld notice the satisfied look in prof's face Audrey, michie n priscilla wanted to "fight and quarrel" in front of prof n see how he responded ... I was so looking forward to their "play" but ended up they r all committee member of NATO ... SO DISAPPOINTING !!! August will b interesting ... the EPL will start, my powercraft course will start soon ... n mabbe I will get a job by then ... can't wait for EPL to start... hope everyone is looking forward to August back to top?
Friday, July 22, 2005 @ 11:14 PM August approaches !!! July came n passed v quickly We are onto the last week of July July was abt commencement, big purchases, refusal to attend insurance's interviews, mtg deadline June is abt gatherings, July is abt more "serious"stuff but equalli impt July started finely, the weather was sunny n bright to begin with mid-July is rainy, gloomy n unpredictable it has been a crazy week, cooped up at home ... trying to finish research on a publication which I promised prof I'm glad is done ... it's a massive task ... but at least it's completed n I'm glad I delivered wat I promised there plenty to look forward to ... gonna start looking for job intensively as usual I promised zhuzhen to treat her to a drink ... so I will do tt ... n the gathering which I promised to organise den it's time to do some outdoor activities ... but tt realli depends on the sun anyway glad tt I've rejected all the insurance companies the final straw was when AIA duped me into attending their recruitment talk tt realli pissed me off ... if they r frank with me i don mind juz dropping by and hear what they have to offer ... but KY don like underhand tactics ... oni loser does tt I was in a cab on my way to my student's hse when I met tis cab-driver Driver: gg back frm sch Me: no lah, on my way to giving tuition Driver: u still studying? Me: no lah, I have graduated Driver: frm poly Me: no NUS, uncle I alreadi 25 liao Driver: tink u got no worries ... tt y din age where got pple no worries wan ??? mb sometimes I'm a bit childish tt y I looks young donno ... though ... perhaps in the gene ... I was like the NCC cadet when I was wearing the army uniform ... now I looks more like the poly grad den uni grad ... so funny until I got a job ... I cldn't shop much hav nt shopping for quite a while ... luckily I cldn't shop with CH last week ... if nt it MIGHT b a Big HOLE in my pocket my shopping list includes (1) a SONY earphone (2) 1 year subscription to outdoor photography (3) Reduced MMC card for my mobile (4) blades (5) Arsene Wenger: The professor (6) Teva slipper Pls don go n buy anything for me though ... I rather u buy me sth more ex ... like an AIR TICKET to Cape Town ... I will b EXTREMELY pleased nxt wk have to send up more resume ... find potential scholarships to apply ... n brace myself for more gatherings uncle needs my help to buy a digital camera ... I luv to b the "acquisition manager" mabbe it will b like resumes, karaoke, movies, photography, swimming n mabbe meddling ard with Photoshop n dreamweaver looking forward to mtg Tze + pals n singing with GB, RF, Stella tt MIGHT happen nxt week can't realli imagine starting to work ... can't imagine waking up early to work ... nvr realli woke up early for much of undergrad life but the $$$ will help ... n hopefully the job satisfaction will help if i got a sponsorship to study in UK ... it will b a gud ting don realli like UK a lot ... but watching Arsenal every Sat wil more den compensate tt well the future will be here soon enuff ... let's see how ... till den I enjoy the present back to top?
Thursday, July 14, 2005 @ 10:01 PM Git aka Feathers in the wind ... June n July r the season of big-budget movies - the blockbusters some blockbusters r gud ... some r mediocre blockbusters deliver the punch, the adrenaline rush ... let u the experience sth u might nt do in ur real-life but sometimes the feel u get frm blockbusters might nt b entirely fresh tt where low budget films or foreign films come into the picture I have some DVDs on my desk so I'm trying to find time to watch it usually I nvr get to finish all the DVDs I bought/ borrowed din always get the time ... there r more impt tings to do sometimes on Thursday ... managed to watch 'Feathers in the wind' - a low budget film which delivered superbly it has the best ending, the most perfect ending I have seem so far I always felt tt the end is always more impt den the beginning ... in fact tt is my philosophy in life as a person ... I din quite knew how to give out, I nvr luv to ... becuz my concept is tt I will nvr gave out tings I started ... giving out was an alien concept for me ... but everyone dreamt of the happy end ... sometimes it might nt always b the case tis week has been rather gloomy ... it juz rains and rains luckily it wasn't my commencement ... it wld b v difficult to take foto den went to Yuan song's commencement ... n saw a few pple including sec sch frenz, Aik Boon it was however quite a dark day for me strangely all my dark days usually started perfectly when I woke up in the morning somehow tings juz went awry anyway I was conned into attending some insurance recruitment talk ... den I happened to b the first one to reach the seminar room they told me the seminar will start at 6:30pm ... I reached there ... I was the first one when had I ever b tis early for a "lecture"? anyway they asked me to have some food first I tried to eat some food ... the food was oki ... but I was kinda sad so I din eat much den they asked me to sit infront ... so i oki lor ... anything lor, i juz bo chap ... but ended up I became the centre of attention becuz all the other pple in the crowd was older n den becuz I got tis boyish look ... I seemed even younger almost every speaker seemed to look at me in the eye ... n told me insurance will b the right career ... haiz..... but the day end quite well ... bumped into SEP frenz, Jane, nvr saw her for quite a while ... we chatted at the bakery shop juz for a while supposed to meet Tze Chien n Hansing for initial D but has to give it a miss becuz of the insurance talk ... guess I'm juz nt fated to watch initial D the NKF saga juz happened in a flash, almost without warning, the whole saga was quite intriguing n the public response was immediate n furious they felt cheated, they shd have cooled it honestly it was a time bomb waiting to explode the sooner it happened ... the beta it is I believe a big setback is always gud ... a big shakeup can always guide an organisation to progress in the correct direction will I ever b an insurance agent? don tink it's quite possible, it never occured in my mind ... n right now I don hav a feel for the job most of my cousins tink I'm more of a thinking person den a feeling person which is nt quite correct ... I always appeared v logical in my explanations n my advices when pple asked me for advices ... I always tried to tidy up the situation for them but tt does not mean I'm nt a feeling person ... I learnt to balance my emotions but when I need to make an impt decision ... I listen to my inner voice ... sometimes ones inner voice n feel r more accurate den all the datas one has in watever career I ended up doing , I hope I can be useful in my position, if I can make an impact on people's life ... I will definitely look back with a smile on my face nxt week will b an empty week ... I have postponed all gatherings/appointments becuz I realli need to finish my review paper mum nagging becuz I haven got a job ... but I have my priorities n I will need to clear other impt stuff first ... the job will come when I'm ready sometimes I tink I'm too self-assured tt I get on people's nerve back to top?
Friday, July 08, 2005 @ 12:25 AM Conceptual leap a large part of our life is repetition ... but sometime we made conceptual leap when we wan to achieve sth, or when we one to progress or when our life is in a mess i always have a different way of handling tings ... a hard to grasp personality ... but my weirdness is repetitive a last minute king ... I thrived on delaying, procrastinating till the last min ... it's NEVER a good way of handling ting ... gud ting is tt I was nvr punished ... the down side is tt I kept repeating the same pattern a crazy honours year, 10 mods + 1 proj within a year ... due to my 'faulty' planning cld teach me a ting or two abt last minute there was sth tt I wished to resolve ... it was sth dear to me ... I finally resolved it last wk it took a conceptual leap to resolve it ... a rather painful measure ... but I had to do it becuz it was the sec bez ting to do mb I cld fly with tis being resolved ... we shall see ______________________ commencement was on fri ... I was looking forward to it as a child ... I have images of grad throwing their "grad-hat"up in the sky but I nvr thot so much abt gg to uni my form teacher in pri sch used to ask me abt my ambition ... I said I wanted to b a cab driver she was obviously v disappointed den later on in life ... I wanted to b one of the 3 professions : lawyer, scientist or pilot my eyesight was poor since young ... so pilot was out I was disappointed when my cousin din go for the pilot test for RSAF somehow bet lawyer n scientist ... I embarked on the route to b a scientist as a child I had to fight a lot of 'battle' ... there were turbulent periods ... sometimes I wished there wld b pple by my side to help or hear me out ... perhaps tt y I wanted to b a lawyer ... so tt I cld b of help being able to help is a gift ... I always feel tis happiness when I help someone if I'm a successful scientist nxt time I MIGHT b a lawyer after tt ... sometimes I wished everything I wanted to b ... but it is always nt quite possible perhaps ONE has to always learn to be contented was real bz during commencement ... so much fotos to b taken ... cousin Noi helped me a lot with the wearing of the gown every moment was special Yuansong, Chunkiat, sinwah n even Steven were at my commencement ... I was surprised to see Steven at the commencement though ... realli surprised ... Ivy, Cheehong, Rongzhang, Vincent, Tze Chien were there too was realli happy to see a lot of my close pals down except time wasn't realli enuff ... busy shuffling ard to take pics ... before everyone left but time juz wasn't enuff ... I still can tink of perhaps ten pple I din hav time to take foto with but everyone was v happy ... it was a contrast to March when everyone was struggling for thesis one of my examiner even told his student ... he was surprised I managed to complete my thesis in Feb ... my project seemed to b heading towards doom din quite understand y suddenly my uni life had become lidat but I'm quite blessed realli ... nt gloating but I'm seldom punished for my mistake ... n there always seemed to b someone who will help me when tings get realli worst I will leave NUS with memories of those wonderful friendships I hav for me ... I treasured a lot of my frenzs tt crossed my paths without den ... my uni life will b less fruitful, less happening, less enjoyable ... monotonus n flat I wanted to go back to lab to take pics with Prof, Michie & audrey ... but time wasn't enuff ... prof was wondering y i din go back to lab after tt it was dinner time with my mom & relatives ... my legs were realli tired ... luckily it was buffet so i need nt have to make the decision on wat to eat all my cousins were there ... we had a drink after Sat was cool ... mtg my SF project mates for a trip to JB ... KS had a car so she drove us ard JB TF & YK was absent ... but still it was plenty of fun the food was nice ... n singing karaoke with KS & GH was pure fun !!! we cld sing for longer without time constraint the karaoke in JB gave me quite a homely feeling, the staff was cool & friendly though there was an electric shutdown half way thru our session, damn ... anyway there was this funny incident: KS saw a cockroach at the corner of the room Me: Can u pls called the staff to get rid of the cockroach , I'm bloody scared of cockroach The staff came in KS: Can u pls remove the cockroach beside the sofa Staff (Guy): It's nt call cockroach ... we call it Xiao Qiang KS: so it's ur pet Me: Can u pls remove ur pet (laughing) Staff: all rite I go n fetch the broom KS: can u juz use a piece of paper cuz if u sweep it ... it might run again Staff: it won't run ... it will fly Me: HAhahaha KS: den can u please use the piece of paper Staff: I told u I scared alreadi mah ..... had dinner at Taman Sentosa ... the food were nice ... as a child I thot the Sentosa in JB were lidat of Singapore ... so of cuz I was in for a disappointment but now I kinda liked it rustic charm n its gd food we sat n talked ... n it had been a whole four years felt v poignant when I wrote the previous sentence so Sat was over juz lidat _______________________ met one of my former student's mother at the mkt ... n it reminded me of the 3 yrs I spent teaching his son she asked me to counsel her son ... I realli wished I haven't forgotten all my JC stuff so I cld teach her son n try to help him for his Á'level but the reality is I cldn't remember I remembered the nice bbq, the food n dessert her family used to serve me I cld still remember those 3 yrs sweetly I'm more of an outdoor person ... so sitting down for hours is nt alwae v tolerable ... but seeing my students improving n performing realli inspired me ... I guessed tt was how I have taught 6 yrs of tuition __________________________ pls do view my commencement fotos ... it's at www.koreanmovie.org/pg til den ... adieus back to top?
Saturday, July 02, 2005 @ 12:25 AM if i have it all over again, I wldn't change a thing tis has been a busy, busy week ... but it's a satisfying one frenzs have asked, prof has asked ... whether I'm starting to get bored right now ... I'm still pretty excited n happy abt the freedom which I have oni 2 mths again it's like being liberated ... it has been a long time but i shall nt remain the same old rubbish wat i wanted to say is I have enjoyed May n June v much ... I realised I still luv life a lot ... my optimism hasn't quite faded away but it's odd tt I'm still v bz mum complained tt I spent too much time with frenzs even CK complained tt I tired myself too much but there r so much things to do ... but I'm glad tt I have fufilled a lot of promises Swedish frenzs Karin & nini arrived on monday ... so I showed them ard ... it was pretty last min ... but I'm glad tt they were v happy abt all the places I brought den surprisingly, I did not need to ask for directions ... so we ended Monday in a restaurant in Chinatown talking abt wat we might do for honeymoon =) den after tt it was tuition till abt 11pm ... I was realli realli tired but my students were more tired den me ... they were JET-LAGGED I nvr suffered frm JET-LAGGED becuz I'm a pig who slept bloody well in the plane I liked long distance flight ... I will usually sleep until there r abt 6 hrs left ... juz enuff for 2 movies the nxt day ... Karin & her sister were off to malaysia ... they wanted to spend some times in Tioman n den Kinabalu spent tuesday afternoon watching Mr & Mrs Smith with KL ... Angelina Jolie is a gladiator-like actress who is more alluring now den in the past Marina Shopping mall has realli changed a lot ... the food court has a gorgeous view ... u can even see the merlion ... overall it muz b the food court with the best view in Singapore I wanted to run on Tuesday ... but can't becuz I was trapped trying to shop ard for some stuff ran on Wednesday ... running actualli brought back lotsa memories sometimes I talked to my frenzs while running ... sometimes I daydreamed ... on days I thot abt pretty memories Wed nite met up with YS, SW n steven at Marina ... it was like dine + movie ... but I bought a cool tie tt is cheap but w exquisite design War of the world was oki for me ... but it won't make my A list as far as my memory cld serve me ... four movies/films made my A list (1) Talk to her (2) Old boy (3) Bungee Jumping of their own (4) Ondskan in at least three occasions ... I was so close to missing den funny ting life ... the ting u omost missed might end up to be the most valuable ting u might have like a lot of tings ... one's opinion abt movie is v subjective ... sometimes ambivalent ... it realli depends on one's background, experience n philosophy most of the times ... reviews r craps ... I donno y sometime we trust the reviews so much ... hey ... it juz one person opinion by thursday nite i was quite tired ... in fact v tired .. but i was quite satisfied n happy went back to NUS n collected my gown as well as past some gifts to my lab colleagues realli have to send zhuzhen + KL for shopping with me for the gift ... overall they liked their gift i was late when i met CH, SY, RZ, Ivy n BW at Orchard did a lot of talking ... so by 12am I was pretty tired BW suggested gg Devil's Bar but it a bit odd for an Arsenal fan to contribute to Man Yoo money pool ... I say NO gown collection seemed a bit like matriculation day ... minus the queue ... minus the excitement from the uncertainity ... it made me tink abt the past 4 yrs it has been great ... beta den JC days i felt tt during my JC days ... my zest n excitement for life wasn't quite there ... perhaps the bz schedule juz suffocated me on the last day of my JC day ... I din quite remember how I felt ... perhaps silently glad tt it's all over NUS offered me more freedom ... no one tramples on my freedom ... I luv to lotsa tings ... overall I enjoy managing my life ... I wilt when others try to manage mine I asked myself wat were the 5 moments tt I will always remember during my NUS days?? they have to b 1) nite cycling during my orientation in which I met pals like Dick 2) doing my first NUS projects with gp of unknowns ... we became quite great frenzs ... having steamboat n eating mooncake while working on the project 3) watching the northern light, experiencing spring, the seas of butterflies flowers n the many parties in Sweden 4) spending the last 3 mths in the lab ... 12 days on thesis writing n 3 days without sleeping juz to wrap up my project 5) No. 5 is secret but is definitely something I cherished a lot overall ... if I have my NUS all over again ... I wldn't change a ting life generates a lot of wat if ... but they r usually nt impt ... becuz at any one time we can oni trust ourselves to make the rite decision ... if we make a mistake ... the bez way is to learn frm it anyway on friday ... i was with matthew n Patrick ... went to JB becuz matthew wanted to get a few of the priacy mkt in Malaysia I haven been to Whampoa for a long while ... was with mum on Sat nite ... there were a huge crowd but the food were gud ... I especially liked the oyster omelette I luv seafood a lot ... after all eating muz b one of the pleasure in life I asked cheefeng how he felt to be leaving on Sunday for Australia we were at the airport ... we had similar feeling but diff intensity our situation was a bit similar ... no 2 persons can experience the same situation I was sad leaving for Sweden ... it was my own choice realli ... at the pt. there was a intense feeling ... a deep sense of sadness ... but I can't elaborate it here anyway ... I told CF tt he will b happy he made the right decision ... looking at the fotos of my exchange I'm reminded of the sweet experiences n the nice pple I met ... n all the frenzs I met I'm sure CF will enjoy himself in Australia tis week is Commencement week ... commencement reminds me of VitC 'Graduation' n tis has been a wonderful week ... a cool morning spent at the Orchid Garden ... two evenings with pals frm my JC ... everything has ended v beautifully ... tt is all I cld say ... mabbe cldn't make much sense to a stranger reading tis ... but a bit of imagination will help all i cld say is - if I have my NUS life all over again, I cldn't change a thing working life will b diff ... but the future will b here soon enuff ... till den I enjoy the present back to top?